Welcome 2011, and simply LET GO of 2010
current location: by the tree, not THE tree
current mood: thoughtful
current song: Football
Was that 2010? Really? It was more a soft sssss rather than a BOOM!! I'm used to the BOOM and I miss it.
1. What did you do in 2010 that you'd never done before?
Tough question. The past few years have been so fantastic for me in the realm of 'personal novelty' and adventure...
However, I think this was the first year that I began doing things FOR MY SELF. I put myself first in ways that I never have before. Did I become selfish? No. Did I begin to start a path of sanity? Perhaps...
It's been quite the quiet adventure so far.
2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I'm not sure I made any on the stroke of midnight 2010, but the ones that I made by the middle of the year, I have kept and succeeded wildly with.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Yes- a very close friend and then two months later my grandmother. It sucked.
5. What countries did you visit?
Grounded this year, but did travel in the good ol'USofA a bit. There was a spontaneous road trip to Nashville, and then a brilliant autumn get away to NYC seemed prophetic of things to come in 2011.
6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?
Peace - mostly in the familial sense. And topically, a winning Georgia Bulldogs season in 2011. Ha!
MUSIC, LAUGHTER, FRIENDS, U2, TRAVEL - I want my circus back!
7. What date/s from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
20 March - Surprised birthday party thrown by local mates, that was TRULY a surprise and fabulous [especially given my birthday is in...September]
21 May - When my whole travel scheme, time with friends, and musical journey for 2010 was cancelled - and I had a devastating sense of trepidation [later resolved] in my heart.
24 August @ 3:45P - when I got a text saying 'Let's go to New York'
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Maintaining a modicum of sanity in the face of absolute madness... Concurrently, extreme patience...
Starting on a path of much needed self-discovery and acceptance.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Not standing up for myself quite enough in one relationship, but I'm determined to resolve that this year. This might just be a New Year's resolution. EEK.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
That's so 2009 for me.
11. What were the best things you bought?
Gifts for others, I think.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
I've thought about this, stepped away, thought about it, stepped away. Honestly? The same old people kept on being good and the same old people kept on being bad.
13. Whose behavior appalled you?
The majority of the right wing-Republican-tea-party asshats and their flying monkeys and anyone who ascribes to their fucked up lack of ethics, their inhumanity and their profound stupidity. Oh yeah, and a lot of the Democrats, too.
Beyond politics, a lot of people in general.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Mostly just to the usual stuff- bills, maintenance, a few fun things here and there.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Finding out about myself [this path I'm on, and where it might take me, where I might take myself] and realising that I have a great deal more strength both emotionally and physically than I ever understood before.
Oh, and while incredibly limited this year, music. Gotta say, the two Frames gigs I went to [Philly & NYC] blew my fuckin' SOCKS off.
16. What song[s] will always remind you of 2010?
Magnificent/U2 - I didn't really get this song the way I 'think' it's meant to be gotten until one night driving home from a meeting. It hit me in the fucking face and blew me away, because I was in the space where I could feel it, it became palpable to me in a way it never had, even live.
I'll Go Crazy If I Don't Go Crazy Tonight/U2 - A mantra and so many memories from way back in 2009 that have been sustaining me through 2010.
American Pie/Don Mclean
... these three songs coalesced into something huge and utterly profound in the soul work I've been doing... HUGE... and then I set them on fire [literally] and LET GO...
For The First Time/The Script - Yeah, I know. But it gives me this sunny, hazy, afternoon in the park feeling combined with grittiness of a city surround and the hope, the HOPE that there can be that kind of love out there. I like it. It's a 2010 one hit wonder for me...
The Entire Frames Catalogue- God, I fucking love this band and I just rediscovered why, AGAIN, at the end of the year and it's a really gorgeous thing.
I know there are more, or maybe not. This was such a musically quiet year for me, a vast wasteland of silence comparatively speaking. Here's to the music returning in 2011.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Happier overall, I think.
ii. thinner or fatter? Thinner, much more fit and definitely healthier.
iii. richer or poorer? Definitely richer, soul first and every way beyond that...amazing what happens when you take care of your soul... and pay it forward...
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Travel, tidying [let's be practical for once] and writing. Wow, I miss writing. Or, let's just say creating in general, because... yeah.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Worrying and denying myself reasonable things [not things, I'm talking emotional 'things'] that I shouldn't because...
20. How will you be spending [spent] Christmas?
Traditionally, family, friends, Midnight Mass, and cheer.
22. Did you fall in love in 2009?
Not romantically, but in other ways absolutely.
23. How many one-night stands?
Two, but they were back to back, with the same people [does that make them 'not' one night stands?] Oh, and they didn't involve sexual activity in any way at all... It was all about the music, dude...
24. What was your favorite TV program?
True Blood?? NCAA Football?? ... uh... wow, I don't really watch television programmes...
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Seriously? No. Hate is an ugly, destructive emotion, and only one breath away from love. Think about it.
26. What was the best book you read?
Define 'best'? That's too subjective. I've read a lot of books and fortunately read them at the proper time so they had a significant impact on me.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
It had to be rediscovery, this year, The Frames.
28. What did you want and get?
Most important, I think I started getting my self-confidence back... Beyond that, I'm so fortunate and I'm not writing a list...It is vast and long and ... no.
29. What did you want and not get?
Peace and understanding from a family member.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
I'm sure I must've gone to some films... uh... hmm...
Maybe u2-360... not because it's *that* great, but it carries me to some exceptional places mentally- memories, knowing friends were in the audience and even the memory of sharing time with friends online watching and commenting on the live feed when it was happening. That was brilliant.
31. What did you do on your birthday?
Which one? I had two!
Friends surprised me in March [what a surprise] with a Paddy's day birthday celebration at my [sorta] favourite pub and it was so overwhelming and sweet and ... surprising. It was a catch-up because 'someone' was off chasing the circus in the fall of '09. *cough*
My real birthday was actually quite special, too. Friends made me a vegetarian spaghetti dinner and we had a really great time... and the (red)Nano was a nice addition, too. [see, I can be material at times]
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Ireland. U2. Friends in those places.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?
Hmm... personal style fashion concepAt? I mean it shifts day to day, month to month depending on what I'm doing, the weather and my ... whatever. Kind of funny that at the run up to NYC in November I went into this really 'dressed' sort of phase that I'm still in. I don't know. I'm all over the place.
34. What kept you sane?
Friends, taking care of myself physically and mentally and not feeling guilty for doing it.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
What? Same one as last year, and the year before that. Yeah.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Healthcare reform, mid-term elections, half-assed work by our elected officials, turncoats.
37. Who did you miss?
Friends who aren't close by. And Ireland, because it's a 'who' to me... And my grandma...
38. Who was the best new person you met?
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010.
Be true to yourself.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
And you can dream
So dream out loud
You know that your time is coming 'round
So don't let the bastards grind you down...
[and that one I'm taking with me, through the next year]